I touch the future; I teachTeachers have power.
We may be crippled by petty economics;
by Government regulations,
by the foolish criticism if an uninformed press;
but their power exists for good and evil.
Who would have thought i am really pursuing ma career as a teacher after all?
It was only promises of the lips from a little child since i last remember.
well, of course being a fickle minded girl (till now),
i had few other ambitions.
But.
Promise u dont chuckle.
=)
1) be a President when i thought being a student is not hard enuf.
2) be a teacher when i thought it was fun.
3) be a full time dancer since im tied down to sooo many different dance groups.
4) be a Nasi Padang Chain CEO when my i realised my family has been in food business for generations.
5) be a news broadcaster when ma JC form teacher forced me to think of a better ambition.
(Apparently she says I have potential to be better than a Nasi Padang Seller.LOL)
well, yeah. So destiny brought me to NIE footstep. And for those ignorant people who think that teaching is a snap, wait till the workload punch you right in between your eyes while you are still in oblivion.
WE work nights, weekends and holidays.
WHY?
Do you even realize, for every person wishing to teach, they are thirty over students not wanting to be taught?!
aaahh...
(suddenly became smarter)
Besides, being a slave for the education system for more than 15 years,
has enlightened me,
that a teacher's most unpardonable greatest sin is to be boring.
And,
being a YOUNG teacher,
(i am lah!)
i refuse to be categorized as such.
So people,
pray hard for me,
so that i am given chance to educate your child,
(evil grin....)
because,
with much sincerity,
i am in head over heels with this rhinoceros love affair.
wink!
Lil Ms Muffet at 3:10 AM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Special Day in Conjunction of Lantern FestivalIts 25th September.
21 months since ive been with Muffin. (that if ive calculated correctly.Heh)
His eyes were swollen, knees bruised, skin scrapped, body totally busted up.
Yet he insisted in meeting me.
Only that I realized its our monthly anniversary.
Not a big deal to some, but apparently, it is to him..okay..us.
With me still in oblivion before i met him,
i dresed up shabbily, hair unkempt
but still in much anticipation to meet this soldier who had two days training hard in a jungle somewer in Marsiling.
Was even more delighted to know that we'll be heading to east coast for my favourite food- cockles! So yeah, we sat down facing a couple of hairy Caucasians, dressed shabbily BUT were discussing some hard core politics. Ha. I know. I couldnt help to eavesdrop. ~wink.
Then goes a peck on ma cheek and he whispered right there and then in the middle of a bustling crowd, "Happy 21st Month". Wow.
Of course i reacted spontaneously with a snappy reply. Heh.
Was it Lantern Festival that day?
Cause, yeah, there were loadsa people havin real good fun with their lanterns and some even came with whistling fire crackers. The kids were great fun. They were digging the sand with their bare hands. And when the hole was deep enuf for them, the place their fire cracker stick(or watva they call it) in the middle and were circling around the hole like some barbaric Red Indians. HAHA.
(will upload the pics and perhaps the video soon aye people).
We settled down near the water breaker and the sight was just amazing. The different coloured lit lanterns and fire crackers brought life to the standstill gloomy background. The glow of the light made it possible to see the smiles craved and joy that these people were having. Then there was the sea with random lit ships forming a perimeter across the horizon. Though I tried to get thewhole sighting on cam, the pic didnt turn out that great as compared to ma vision.
Still, today's wonderful event definitely is a short escape for me.
Do read the poem given by Muffin below. (and yes, i feel shitty for being unprepared!)
=)
Tense and beating, full of fear.
I keep with me your everlasting love,
and bless the day God sent you from above.
You remain my angel and I feel that I must,
tell you that within you,
you have my trust.
My love is the tide,
your soul is the shores,
you have my heart,
do I have yours?
I'll belong to you till the very end,
and you will forever stay as my lover and friend.
It has been so good like this from the start,
so darling please, trust me with your heart.
When I fall in love,
I want to be with her always;
In happiness,to smile with her,
and be the one to hug her near.
In sadness,
to cry with her,
and be the one
to dry her tears.
When I fall in love,
I will spend my
every waking and
sleeping moments with her
and catch each moment in its eternally lovely form.
When I fall in love,
I will miss her
the very moment
I say 'goodbye'
and my heart
will yearn for
the very moment
I say ?hello'.
I exist now dreaming in reality,
shades of deep reds and grays,
Evolving at the speed of light
As my third eye sees all,
I bring my fingers to my lips and time stops
I taste you.
I ponder you and wallow in the memory of your scent and way.
How you called me baby
The way you made me laugh
The way you touched my heart
and made me believe
Unable to stop,
it seems too wonderful,
but in the end there is not much but pain.
I allow this for some time,
then I awake and know that I am alive and the possibilities are endless.
Wanting you to taste my soul
and undeniably know that I am the one and we are one to conquer happiness together, unimaginably, the way you knew that we could
and will if you say one word,
Yes!
Your fear.
Your ego.
Your pride.
They protect and also hurt you,
keeping you from what is rightfully yours,
Love.
If I had your heart again?
Oh, the way I would touch it,
nurture it and protect it
My most sacred gift
God wants what I want,
he trusts me and knows my light is pure as he does you.
Say the word once.
The heavens will open up and the angels will sing in our praise
Because we chose.
Please don't be afraid,
I am always here for you.
I Love You.
aaaahhh.. im falling in love all over again! !
Labels: Annivesary
Monday, September 24, 2007
A FootStep to A New Virtual Windowi do not know why i am starting this online journal entry.
maybe just to see what i can write and how far i can pull this off. I never had 'nuff patience to actualli pen every single thoughts, be it in journals, diaries and whatnot..
But yeah, there's always a new possibilty and first time for everything. well, whateva. Ha.
THIS is
A pic that depicts every synonym for the word"happy".
But what lies beneath is almost the opposite.
Name's izan, ijan,zan.
Am a full time food junkie.
Loves GFs.
Loves BFs.
Happily Married.
Thats all you need to know.
But still, welcome to my you-dont-want-to-know life.
Coz im still relentlessly finding all ma loose friends in this side of world.
YOOHOOO!!
anyone der?
remy?
Ainee?
Kak Salwa?
Nana? -FOUND.
=)
Labels: Virgins